| since i posted on this. i actually miss writing and venting about my hectic lifestyle. my how things have changed since my last entry. i wonder what people think when their reading about how messed up someone's life can be? are they thinking, damn, sucks to be her/him? or does it just make them more thankful for the blessings they've received? probably a little bit of both. so what's the low down? my brother has departed from slo town. that in itself is reason to write a freaking novel, however, i will spare everyone from the nitty gritty details of this soap opera. long story short and lesson learned...you can't help someone who does not want to help themselves. i haven't talked to him since he left over two months ago and have no desire to do so. though i wish him well, i just wish him to not talk to me...for a while at lease. in the end i will forgive but never forget. especially since he left us with a large car payment that has my family separated during the evenings due to my husband having to pick up a second job. my fingers are crossed that maybe someone will want to buy a 2007 toyota tacoma, but no interest yet. if anyone wants to donate to my cause to get rid of the devil truck (go figure, it's red too), click here to help a sista out. desperate times call for desperate measures. i haven't quite announced this yet, but who the heck cares. we're gonna have another baby in september. i'm very excited, but it just sucks to have my husband gone at night. i feel like a single mom, toting around two kids and my pregnant belly. blah. i know that god is watching and will provide us with the strength to get through it. not to get all religious, but what else do we have to fall back on during times like these. though totally off-topic, i miss my light colored hair. perhaps it's not the hair that i miss, but the thought of going back to those times when my lighter hair and there was less stress. yeah, i think that's what it is, sort of. i'm trying to think of what else to write, but i feel like this post is dragging on. i miss xanga, just a lil bit. perhaps i won't stay away so long next time...until then. |
